If you didn't catch the drift of my Easter Daybook the theme emerged that life needs to slow down a bit. Really we aren't doing that much more than normal things: school, kids, family, work, a few other things. However it all adds up. The errand here. The meeting there. The emails here. The weekend away there. And when life hands you some majorness (like busy busy busy for the husband at work) and getting ready for a 4th baby (among other things) there leaves little room for sitting down and just, well,
I don't do stress. Or multi-tasking. I *hate* it when I get to the point of being grumpy with my kids just because my own world is too messy. These are just things I choose not to have in my life so when they creep up (like being super frantic and having to remember/to do a million things at once) I know this is when things need to change - when I need to cut something out. However, cutting out is hard. It means giving up certain things that are good and right in and of themselves. And when you don't have the strength to cut them out, sometimes God does it for you.
I just wish it didn't come in the form of puke.
Sure, Michael and I need to get away. But our marriage isn't going to fall apart if we don't get two whole days away together. It will fall apart, however, if we are so rushed from here to there that we don't have time to just be. God took away something good to perhaps (no, I know) give us something better: that being a movie on the couch, NO PLANS, time to not worry about the house being messy, time together as a family to ride bikes around the block, and maybe a nap in there somewhere? Yes, please.
Being open to a change in plans is not easy. Yet the fruit that can result if we just let go will be better than what we originally thought we wanted. Oddly enough, I am more at peace with staying home than getting to have this adventure. The time away will come but getting these moments of respite and doing nothing are few and far between. So, I'll take it.
So much for not getting sick after Max's well-child check up last week, bahahaha.