....but not the tequila kind 'cause I'm on a "meal plan."
I haven't been avoiding you, I swear. It's just this blog thing has given me lots of angst. Ugh, I know it's just a blog and no one probably really cares, but I care. I care so much that I had to take a break and really really figure out if this is for me.
You see, I love blogging. I LOVE writing. I love writing more than talking and I'm better at it (I think) - so much so that when I don't know what to say to my husband I write him letters and then we talk about it.
But then there's that life thing. You know, the four kids and the homeschooling and the household running and the real running and the husband supporting and the possibility of weird people reading stuff about my family and the everything else (according to Avila's grammar lesson I used too many "and's") of life that has to go on before I can even attempt to think about putting something on paper. Even right now I'm toiling with getting these words down VS. getting ready and having breakfast made before the kids gets up (my new morning routine which is the bomb).
BUT I COULDN'T STAY AWAY ANY LONGER.
There is something that's telling me to give this baby one last shot and see what happens. I would love any feedback to know whether it makes a difference or not. Not because I'm searching for vain applause or a la-tee-da to fill my head but because I want to know if my time spent here is worth it with everything else going on in life. Because if it ain't then I can spend it reading or painting my nails or something. But if it is then by golly I'll keep doing it for there is just so much on my heart that I feel called to share day in and day out - things that the Lord and life have brought me through that could serve a purpose for others in some way, shape, or form.
So, there, I broke the silence. I should have waited to post this until tomorrow and the two month anniversary of me non-blogging but the extra cup of coffee must have gotten to me and my fingers and full of caffeine. (And Lola will be pretty soon too.......)
I would love to hear from any of you as I continue this journey. I'm an introvert and like the masked communication of the internet world, LOL, so it would be right up my alley. In the meantime, enjoy a freaking cute baby picture because I have neglected you with one for way too long. (Sorry if you've already seen this one on Facebook or Instagram. It's too adorable not to share 500 times.)